10:33 a.m. - Tuesday, Jun. 23, 2009
can u keep my secret?
so again tis is my secret. I wish i could believe people less. Believe in them less. The thing is he said he was coming sunday and then he bailed cause of family. and im like ok he said he would see me tuesday. great my day off. wrong he canceled cause he has to mow the yards. and that tells u dont want see me like i want to see u. and then i tried to cheer up and i dont know. I have this whole afternoon just about free cause he was gonna come over and well now alot of free time and im gonna hate every minute of cause i was so fucking excited to see him. I may or may not make plans to do other things but i dont know. watch me end up staying home i bet. and he will go to friends house and hang out. or play magic. and 3 place! yay. its not like i get that many chances to see him. I feel like a lair cause i tell people that he comes up just to hang out and well yeah now he bailling. I was waiting to see if that happened. I opened up and let the love flow in and now he has let me down. its not that big of deal but to me it was. so now im gonna play it off like it doesnt brother me cause i dont want him to know he has hurt me. And that is hard cause its hard for me to do that. I need to do my project. then take a nap. im only taking one cause i have nothing better to do. lol. my how life is funny sometimes.
