12:52 a.m. - Thursday, Dec. 11, 2008
peace
lord i do this everytime. i go though old friends pages and wonder y we are not friends anymore. and some of it was me i know but i am still here waiting to be friends again and hang out. but there again there life is different and so is mine and maybe its time to stop being a cry baby about it. they have relationships and lifes and i have wok and school and sometimes i have time for friends and sometimes my b/f has time for me. thats kind of sad i guess then. wow.. i am that person. i was happy when we started dating but im not anymore cause its not like it was and it went quick. maybe her was more willing to be something i thought he was and now he "has" me and its all good then. well its not. and i like him its just nothing is gonna change cause he doesnt want it too. somethings are out of his control but some arent. well thats something i have known for awhile but im not quite ready to be single again. hell lets be honest i feel and act single i throw him in there to remind myself i have one and keep most guys away. so thats y i havent broken up with him. plus im looking for a good enough reason and i just can find it. isnt that sad. ok well im dont ranting. later
