2:14 a.m. - Saturday, Apr. 28, 2007
wrap it up
so yeah. this ons is my heart i guess..cause i keep coming back. i want to be inlove. but it seems hard. i not overwhelmed with anymore. and im scared that im a doer and not dater. i want to be loved again. if i could trust my ex or even think i can iw would get back togther with him. i mean. he has a career, hes gonna do something with his life..and love me and i know i could love too. but thats what i want. u know.get away from drugs and bad influences. u know. maybe ill never find that again. but i sercetly hate my job. like with a passion.its hard work for little pay. and yeah. im still just a spermbank that aint delivering. id like to have a kid with someon i love and wants somethng to d with his kid. and i really want to get out of fayetteville. i mean my bestes friend is leaving me. and that makes me all sad on the inside. its almmost like no reason to stay here. like i would want to move closer to her. cause i reget not talking her 4 the longest time and its really my fault. some hers too...but its ike i could have done better. and still alittle jealous of brooke. i feel like they have more than me and adrienne.gotta go comps anbout to die
