3:24 a.m. - Wednesday, Apr. 26, 2006
life and its players
ok..ive had a really good day. and night."thnak u" (u know who u are). i went ot owkr still kind of tired and tried to bullshit and be friedly it jsut wasnt working...thats what happen when u stay up will lik 10 and haqve to work in acouple of hours. seems im doing it again tonight.i dont need sleep. i didnt last night. so as i was getting off work...i called people and sees whats going on. and me and thomas ended up hanging out. which means i got laid..."YAY". its funny appently im too loud...his mom hears me....and yeah.i think she looks at me funny now. of course i would just laugh is it was tured on me. but anyways. got high..watched some movies...that i enjoyed. and he passed and i stayed up till i could pass out. i cant belive i actually slept there. i dont normally sleep just doze off at other peoples places. u know. and then he woke me up too more sex..after his mom left. not that im complaning..its the best way to way up. his mom is crazy though. like yeah, we chilled for while. he showed me his plants...there cool as shit though. its cool that hes tryingto grow that. i cant wait to see how it turns out. we played mortal combat and i lost like a little bitch. yeah i got my ass kicked so bad...even i had to laugh. i can never remember the moves. damn memeroy. got food at some point. had to leave before his momy came home again and figured out that iwas still there. bad news. yeah the skirt i was wearing was soaked...i had to let that dry. so i ended up walkign around with a shirt thats it. he got take a shwoer and i stil had that sex feel about me, u know? im slightly mad at angel....grrr. everytime i let soemthing go that she did shedoes soemting esle that i find not cool. and it keeps bugging me until i get mad and sort of talk to her and then tryto let it go. whatever.grr." ill kill u bitch".im tired of everyone treating me like a joke, the biggest blonde. i mean yeah i do soem stupid shit, and soemtimes i dont make sense. but i do actually have things to say.thats antoher things shes been doing lately..making jokes at me expense and sometime i even laugh...but soemtimes she takes alittle too far with it. this new guy shes wants to hook up with and she tolled him "that shes picky bout the guys i date". ok and? that just means i have standards appetly some people dont?? dating is something i take seriously....if its someone i want to date that means that i think there is soem thing there...not just for the booty. i eman hell i can get sex....(see above). and i dont open my legs just for anybody...cause most people kind of suck. ive been with a couple and only like 2 haveactually made me get all juciey.im not sayign that im the best ...either. the only reason she said that was cause she was trying clearing the path for her....so he wouldn try to hit me up...u know...give me a reputation. and that pisses me off...caise i know how she meant. some people just kind of suck. gott get this shit on the road. man.its alright though..it wil lwork out one way or another just try to enjoy the ride. ross called me last night when i was hnaging out with thomas. i almsot felt kind of bad..cause yeah. i eman at one point me and him were surposse to date. buti dontk now. hes coming in agusut...i think...to hang out and see whats what. i wonder if ill besignle by then. i dont know im kind of tired of the single life. it has its moments but mmm...so does dating. and i havent sstarted me period....im kind of getting worried about that. stupid stupid...mistake.
