10:02 p.m. - Monday, Feb. 13, 2006
boy named sue
ok so travis and me ar etalkign about ge tting back together. in a few days i'll know. either way it will be ok. its just crazy that this is happening. i love him...he still makes nervous, smiling all the way. jsut him holding me feels good. better than any other guy ive even just lunged on. its soemthnig i want ot happen...but im oddly calm about. i remember when i was young and i would get asked out...and be jumping and hollering. and im so calm about it..thats what scaries me. i dont doubt how i feel. i jsut hope that whatever we had that rworked is stil lthere. build soemthing real on it again. and not let it fall to crap. but i would feel alittle more free-er this time around. cause ill want to be withhim...thats never gonna change....but space is needed so lives dont go and get fucked up again. and plus i have friends who i want to sped time with. a job that right now im glad to do. by the by i had my own register...for like 2 hours runnin off my numbers and with no back up. omg i was so scared and ineeded the csm so many times it was not funny. it was jsut cause i was so nervous. but i did ok. came out even on my draw...though the 1st time i dit if i came out -30. not cool. she the CSM had to come over and re check it and i jsut added things in the crackulater wrong. go figure. gotta get ready for bed soon. work and all that.yay!!!! not really. but its ok. money. gotta get something for mom...need some paper to make a card.but thats ok. ill figure out soemthing i always do. well im gonna go. i have more to say but my back it hurting a bit. well alter tater.
